I have this habit of obsessing on (or over? about?) disgusting and violent images. This can happen at any moment, but it especially happens when I'm lying on my back--in shavasana (which translates as "corpse pose"), for example. I still obsess over images from horror movies I saw when I was younger, and also a documentary about the Mai Lai Massacre I saw in high school. I'm particularly angry at a former coworker who told me an especially disgusting and violent and cruel story one day after lunch, and now it is in my brain forever.
I mostly obsess over images of horror that have anything to do with violence towards animals, girls, or women. In this way I am a lot like the news in the USA, except that I don't forget these images, they pile up and I think about them before I go to sleep, or when I wake up, or when I'm in shavasana, or before I prepare to do a back bend. I think about them when I'm hypersensitive to texture and can't quite filter and control my emotional reactions to things. Like today, for example.
I'm a bit touchy about this because in the past two or three months several people have tried to tell me stories about how their small bird or cat or little pet died a horrible death. Most small pets die because the people who buy them are oblivious assholes.
A lot of people who decide to have children are oblivious assholes, too.
So, please please don't tell me your stories of awful things that have happened--my body is full of them already.
2 comments:
i do this too-- store stories-- hint-- don't read any more joyce carol oates.
*hug*
Jessica--thanks : )I started to say something in this post about how I think violence and horror are important to art (and a lot of the art I love best deals with such things), but I didn't have articulate energy. The way in which something is represented has a lot to do with how I store it...
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