Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Failed Attempt at Being Chill

I went to a restorative yoga class this evening to "relax." It was a great class, but I don't relax well unless I'm physically exhausted. Next time I'll do the vinyasa class beforehand. I was rather cynical, I even hated the asanas I typically like: twists were irritating, and I remained congested for the entire class. When I rolled into fetal pose after savasana, I thought, "fuck this pose. I hate it. It's uncomfortable. I don't want to be metaphorically born again into the world."

It's my overall mood today. I'm happy, but any time I've attempted to be introspective has resulted in some rather fierce, uncomplicated hostility. Tra la la la la!

3 comments:

Sandra Simonds said...

It's so funny that if you go to yoga with the intention to be "chill" you can get totally frustrated. I can totally relate to this. It's so hard to do yoga without any expectations.

If you have any interest in swimming---I've found it to be amazing for relaxation and anxiety reduction. I'm not sure what it is about water, but swimming is really wonderful.

Amanda said...

hahahahaha "fuck this pose"

I completely understand.

K. Lorraine Graham said...

Sandra--I love swimming, and used to swim at the YMCA in Washington, DC when I lived there. By best yoga experiences aren't narrated by one of my many cynical, and very amusing inner voices, but it can happen any time.

Amanda--I'm glad to know that someone else relates to my "fuck this pose" thoughts. Ha!